I am trying to get ready for work right now, but i have tears in my eyes. I called my Gma at 7, to say Happy Bday. Gpa says shes still in bed. What? why? I say, since when? My grandma has always been the first one up, my whole life, usually around 6 at the latest. He says "well, for a while now". On Sunday I wanted to go see her, to take her to the movies, but she wasn't feeling well then either.
Its happening, faster then Im ready for. I don't want it to. I need my Grandma, more then life.
I wish i could skip work right now and just go see her.
Ill continue to pray, pray to delay the inevitable.
I know this might sound horrible, but something I learned (the hard way) is that sometimes praying they stay on Earth longer isn't always a good thing. My grandma is 96 so I'd say my prayers have definitely been answered. However, it has been so bittersweet...although the majority of the last handful of years have been sadly bitter. I say enjoy every moment you have with her and just pray that she goes when it is her time. And I always find it comforting to know that we will be together again :)
ReplyDeleteHope you are well. I found your blog (luckily) while searching for buntings!!! Anyway, hope you are alright!
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