Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Moving on up

I am Moving to Texas!

Tomorrow, well today actually is my last day at our Costa Mesa office. Wednesday I will pack my car, and Thursday all on my own I will drive away from the lovely state of California. Pretty brave, id say. I have wanted to leave CA for so long. I first realized this wasn't the place for me years ago when I went to Boston . The desire to leave grows daily, and I am constantly reminded why this place is not for me.

It will take time to adjust, no doubt. Its very different, but I really feel like almost nothing could be worse than here.
The Quality of life all around, is just better in Texas.
People are nicer, friendlier, less self absorbed from what i noticed. The cost of living is a phenomenal difference. There are no state taxes, there are jobs! I mean you can actually get ahead in life, get out of debt, buy a house you can afford, your children can go to good schools,  list just goes on.
A starbucks employee even told me to have a blessed day! I mean in CA, you would probably be sued for saying that!
Ultimately who knows where i am destined to be, however in my heart I know I am making a step in the right direction.  I am so ready for an entirely fresh start. I am ready to move on from a very dysfunctional family, men and "friends" that belong in the past and all the other superficial pressures of orange county. I am leaving the emotional baggage when I go. Just me, my car, dogs and clothes that is all I've invited to come along.
I had my last visit with my doctor on Friday. The last few years I've told her everything, the good, bad, dark depths of my soul. She encouraged me every step of the way,always  reminding me of the good, honest person . She taught me not to be so hard on myself, and that no I am not as crazy as i think at times. She also assured me how ready I am to leave, and  move on. I admire and respect this lady to an ultimate degree, and I am going to miss her like crazy.

The goodbye's with friends started last weekend. Pamela and Dawn came up from San Diego and we went shopping, out dancing, brunch at taco rosa, and it was fabulous.
Saturday night I had my going away party , dinner then dancing. It was a huge success  and I had a blast of course with the help of Patron.
My heart was warmed by the presence of so many people coming to say goodbye, and have a good time with me. It was beyond my expectations, and it really made me feel so good. I just have to say people drove out of their way, people married, people with kids, those that don't even dance or drink, and they still made the effort to see me. THAT is a friend. I don't ask much from people, but showing up is half the battle and if you cant do that a few times a year, well aint'' nobody got time for that!

Tomorrow I will say goodbye to people I have seen daily for the last 6 years. The tears already started today. I have met some really amazing people in my time there, and some I will really miss.

So take a risk, follow your dreams, and wish me the best.