Happy Birthday Drake

Can you believe Drake just turned 25? Wow. I can't imagine already have living so much by that age. The money, lifestyle, women, its just insane . I love him, and his real name Aubrey Drake Graham.

He went from making just 8 million dollars in 2009 to 115 million in 2011, per Forbes. All I can say is, get it Drizzy.

I cannot wait for his new album which comes out on November 15, and I will purchase immediately. There are already 3 brilliant tracks released . Marvins room, Make me proud (Ft. Nicki Minaj), and Headlines. Drake and I share a love for strippers, ciroc, a good club, and Nicki. Most of all I feel like him singing this song. Only I am a female. This song, just feels extremely familiar to my life right now. I truly hope I get to see him and the rest of Young Money live one day. That would be a dream come true.

Bitches in my old phone
I should call one and go home
I’ve been in this club too long
The woman that I would try
Is happy with a good guy

But I’ve been drinking so much
That I’ma call her anyway and say
“F-ck that nigga that you love so bad
I know you still think about the times we had”
I say “f-ck that nigga that you think you found
And since you picked up I know he’s not around

Are you drunk right now?

I'm just saying you could do better,

and ill start hating only if you make me'

Mascara Review

So cover girl lash blast, in the orange tube was my favorite for a while. I recently tried L'oreal million lashes, in the gold tube, however. That stuff is awesome!! Highly recommend. It has the same type of applicator, a hard rubber. So its sturdy when you apply. You actually should apply several coats, because of the formula, you need to wait about 30 seconds between each coat. I loved this so much, I wanted to try the volume based edition, in the black tube. That was horrible. The applicator isn't the same, the formula sucks and is super flaky.

So Voluminous Million Lashes wins, and you should go try it, asap.

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L'Oreal Voluminous Million Lashes Mascara

Nostalgic

I got dinner from the Mexi-Casa tonight, in Anaheim. My father and his family came here when he was growing up, that is how long its been in the same spot. The inside is the same, the prices haven't changed much, and I think its super. It amazes me, that I was not raised by my father whatsoever, yet I am very much his daughter. It also makes me very sad.

I've been hiding in my cave the last few days, and this was the first time I left. This is a low, and shaking it seems to be hard. Since Sunday, I've been really sad about my Grandma. I can't talk to her without crying. I just tell her i love her over and over. Really she could die any day. I honestly have no clue. I try to tell her shes my angel, she's the only reason I am alive, she is my reason for living. and I cant even get the words out of my mouth.

I miss my dog Coco. My mom took him the last time i moved, last week. The lady here already has 4 dogs. I smuggled Patsy in as it is. I couldn't bring 3 dogs with me. So now Im sad and guilty, and want my Co co bears.

I hope I feel better, that is all.

Soul Sistah

I think I found her! My thick, pointy nail wearing, retro loving gal. Of course she is gorgeous with an amazing voice. I've been listening to her videos and interviews, in tears and awe. Adele, I love you, and am now convinced we are long lost sisters. She feels like an old soul to me, I can't believe she is so young.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head

In this video she said one day she would re live is the day her grandpa was dying. I seriously just cried.

Happy Birthday to my angel

My Grandma, My Angel

I am trying to get ready for work right now, but i have tears in my eyes. I called my Gma at 7, to say Happy Bday. Gpa says shes still in bed. What? why? I say, since when? My grandma has always been the first one up, my whole life, usually around 6 at the latest. He says "well, for a while now". On Sunday I wanted to go see her, to take her to the movies, but she wasn't feeling well then either.

Its happening, faster then Im ready for. I don't want it to. I need my Grandma, more then life.

I wish i could skip work right now and just go see her.

Ill continue to pray, pray to delay the inevitable.

Kawaii Nails

My obsession with Asian culture continues. These nails are a complete norm in Japan, and I am obsessed. I really wanted to get these done for my birthday, but now that i have no real nails on three fingers, ill have to wait. I've searched online, and reviews and the best place in my area to get these is atlas studio, in costa mesa. Now to me, getting nails like this would be a treat, because a full set with art on each finger, will cost around $100. However, they do acrylics old school, the form the tip, they do not glue on a tip. Also each nail is custom art, and formed for you, no glue on pieces. I think its truly amazing.

pretty girl

These are my two edited shots from my pinup shoot. I am absolutely in love. When I look at these, I seriously feel so happy inside, and feel like i could even do some modeling. Whoa! Of course the photo shopping sheds some pounds, and improves everything, but all photos you see in print are edited today. I definitely want some more shoots, once i have the funds. Done by GirlieShow photography, California.